I have a confession to make…
For the last 3 or 4 days I have had some major anxiety going on. Sometimes for just a few moments but a couple of really long periods during the day and night where anxiety manifested itself in dark thoughts about the current situation in the world and took my breath away. It feels awful.
I couldn’t focus on anything past my thoughts of what happens if my children end up sick, how will we deal with it so far from home. I found myself feeling disassociated from everyone around me, like I had lost my grounding.
That’s not my confession, my confession is that I forgot I had a way to deal with those feelings. I forgot that I can use my yoga practice to find that grounding I need. I forgot that I can wake up, practice then leave it all on the mat. Which lets be honest is a little bit embarrassing for a yoga teacher…
This morning at 7.15 I was on my mat. I worked, I stretched, I lost myself in my asanas. I lay on my mat and allowed myself to mediate in my savasana. I just let myself be.
I lost my anxiety and found calm in my mind, body, and soul. I lost myself in the magic of yoga.
Today it is grey outside but inside I have sunshine that I created on my mat so I’m good.
Om Sarve Bhavantu Sukhinah
Sarve Santu Nir-Aamayaah
Sarve Bhadraanni Pashyantu
Om shanti shanti shanti
Om, May All become Happy,
May All be Free from Illness,
May All See what is Auspicious,
May no one Suffer,
Om Peace, Peace, Peace.